wonderful experience

after all the obstacles i've gone through, i found the shine at the end..i made it!!!cyez..im enjoying, im learning, im happy now..thanx lots to Allah..without His blessing, i dunnoe what'll happen to me..

im in the right track now and just go with the flow..huhu..
without notice, it has been a month we (Department of Building) undergoing practical..huhu..lots of moment, suka duka, exhausted, funny, and new knowledge we gain..rite??

for my friends who didnt have opportunity to be with us, never give up k..maybe korg will face benda lg best dari ktorg..well everybody knows that contruction industry will expend to i donnoe the excactly the pit stop..so there r still alot of technology that will be existing in future and the chance will be urs my friends..

never give up k n remember "bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian" k..
love frm hazwani to all my friends!!chaiyok2!!

the really truth..

its about my internship..i feel bad, i feel horrible, i wanna cry, i wanna blame people and much more!!!hhhmmmm....(sigh)
sometimes i feel like im trying to destroy my future cz after i graduated, for sure i'll be working in this industry and will face with the same people..am i rite???
but unfortunately i've done mistakes..

the truth is i wanna blame this company..its start from letter "U"..one of class A contractor in Alor Star...the worker at this firm had promise to me that the company will take/accept me for the internship and i am really dumb stupid and trust this "U" company..i wait for the reply cz en.rizal already faxed the official letter to the company and the "U" company didnt reply it back..i wait till the examination weeks come....most of my friends already confirm the practical with choosen company...eventhough i was among the earliest send the official letter, but i havent get any answer YET!!!..my heart not feeling well and my hand was easily called the company..and suddently the workers at "U" company said "sorry dik, surat adik tu blom excess, better adik cari company lain.." macam _ _ _ _ la kan..the date was very closed and luckily i've backup which is "K" company..fuh..lega n really thankful to The Almighty!!!

but its not finished yet..in "K" company i should do QS job and its accepted cz my sudy is also includes measurement and estimate..but the really job im doing is photostating tender documents..wwwuuuaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! really bad and exhausted..cyez..

i wanna change the company but there are lots of misunderstanding about this..im stuck between my dad, my curent company, my lecturers, my department and all the related..cyez im stuck and i donnoe whot should i do now!!!!i feel like i wanna quick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, tolonglah permudahkan urusanku dan Kau berikanlah yang terbaik untukku..Sesungguhnya hambaMu ini sudah tidak mampu untuk menanggung dugaanMu ini..Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin...

4th day of being assisstant QS..

exausted, bored, really painfull and many else..
i dun noe this kind of feeling, feel like wanna cry, scream very loud!!!!!!!!!
it's hard to decribe how i feel now..
im not doing the thing that i like so im easy to get tired and bored..
diorg sume have the topic already and i????
hrm..please... (cryin' again)

what the hell of this circumstance...
may be it's my fault too cz didnt find the place that suite to me..
but its too late now..

PASRAH....

='(

please give me back my freedom!!!!

argh!!!during the whole exam weeks i feel like i wanna killing that guy..what so bored..always listen to her words..what's this and what's that..
actually it's not good to tell here.. but i really2 hope that person realize and aware to people's right...
not all people do the same way as you to study..and some of people need calmity and tranqulity to study and to understand...
i know you are smart and good in everything..but please give me a chance and space because im not like you..
i have to learn from ZERO okay...

to saper ntah nmnya but she's BS student..please dun do u shit,f***king attitude to anybody..perasan aku kwn ko...belah lah...i never though that u r my friend okay and im not interested to be friend with you actually...but because I HAVE TO!!!
please change ur attitude if u wanna socialize or "bermasyarakat" with people...jgn memandai buat harta org jd harta ko..n one more thing,im not ur printing or scanning service person okay,...nath2 ngaku ader scanner or printer kt kwn2 ko..pastu kwn ko datang tnya, "Is this the B***H room???, nk print or scan smtg la..."
WTH!!!!!

hummmmm exam is going to end soon..n on 17th i'ii start my internship..hehehehe...jd contractor!!!!fuiyoooo!!! ingt sng ker work in construction industry...but i donnoe how does it looks like...hehehehe..poyo jer lebih..

to my mom n family...i really2 missed all of you..in my current situation, i want my mom beside me bcoz im always thinking, if Allah doesnt give chance to me for tomorrow, will I see my mother again..(crying...serious!!)
i miss my mom much888888xxxxxxx!!!!!
mom,dad..please pray for me... =)
i really2 wanna make both of you happy to see my suceed and u'll proud of me..
hope i have the chance...Amin...

balik+buhsan+stress+annoyed+guilty

16042010

nk tulis pasal smlm..15042010

yesterday was very100x bad day 4 me..since the beginning of the day, till the end..wuargh!!tension giler..
1st, woke up late to the class and very hurry(rushing) go to the class cz scared if i'll scoled by the lecturer..but he's not like that actually..but im very scared if people loosing their trust on me..im sorry en.haiqal cz absent on tuesday cz im very2 sick..my nose can't stop running and my voice was flying to i don't noe where..

go back to what happen yesterday, after i went back from the class with uncontrolable felling...
after i reached to my room, nissa, my roomate told me that my printer has stuck.. the paper was not working out..and i try to fix it but i dunnoe how to do it..kesian nissa..im so sorry...i can't help you by that time n i made it worse rite???luckily the ink xkener nissa's drawing..seriously i felt guilty to nissa..im so sorry..

before i go back to my room, i bought a nescafe(my fav drink) and ice tea at the downtown and then, i put it on my table...giler khusyuk maen game i forgot about the drink on my table..habis tumpah and i just relize it when the time is already 8 or 9 pm smthg...argh..habis all my books and notes absorbed the drink and the most important thing is MY NOTES GONNA MISSING!!!!bcz ink kembang and i can't read it...OMG!!!!!!and i dun have any mood to study structures for the next day test..

Ya Allah..please help me and i wish this incidents will not gonna happen again to me..

about the internship..lstill not settle yet...aper la masalahnyer nk approve kn JUST A LETTER and fax it..bgtau ler..if i accepted or not..dun make me waiting!!!

final exam'schedule giler babeng punyer..harini final presentation 4 entreprenuership n tomorrow is the exam day and the next day is BUILDING CONSTRUCTION with 5 CREDIT HOURS!!mmg best!!!argh..ETRETRETRETRETR!!!!!!

kebuhsanan.....

wuiyooo....dh nk abis dh sem ni..kejap jer..tp sem ni la yang memenatkan giler antara sem2 lepas..
rindunyer nk balik umah...dh lama x jumpa family..
final project submit minggu depan..mmg best lah...model pon almost siap..hehe...
cantik....warna warni..huhuhu..hopefully ms. rafizah n cik azira suker r...
hrm..in confused cz berbelah bahagi nk balik ker x minggu ni...mcm yer or mcm x...herm...
tp rindu giler nk makan ayam masak merah mak buat...

masuk com lab hari ni..semangat giler..
tp when the monitor is ready to use, aiseh..no surfing icon la plak..
mean the computer is just formated..alamak!!!hancus..bengong ler..
dh la guna broadband pon x jalan..
xtau ker communication is very important nowadays?????
nme jer dok kt ipt tp the facilities is not satisfied especially in THE INTERNET COVERAGE..
argh....
dh lama kot x on9 facebook n myspace...same goes to twitter...argh..
malas nk salin notes en.sallehan...wewewewewewe....

dinner...

building night is coming..
wargh..lot8x of things to do..penat lor..meeting banyak missed..
malas nk bergerak..
assignment pon mcm hampeh jer...nasib baik ada baw n rakan2...thanx lot!!!!

currently in puchong..ikut pakcik n family jalan2..
n try to find dress for dinner..huhu..
bukak facebook,alias da nk kawen dah..
tahniah diucapkan!!!!
argh...no idea to write here..
time xder internet,mcm2 jer nk tulis..huhu

da....hope today best lah.. =)

*thanx kt perol,zul n poji hntr aku kt ladang lekir semalam =)